T-2

I'm back. I feel very deflated, and it's all my own doing. I just had to break down in tears. I just don't feel like I have a handle on anything right now, and I keep entertaining giving up.

My DH called me to give me a "pep talk", and said "the 4 monkeys are looking for a stimulus. Give it to them. After they've had that stimulus, they'll tell you what's wrong with it. You make the changes, and walk out. That's all you have to do" It's a funny image to see my committee as monkeys looking for a stimulus, but there it is.

It doesn't have to be perfect, it has to be DONE!

Ugh.

I'm already thinking about how the study and the analysis should have been, and I have to keep in mind that it's too late for that change now. I simply cannot do it. I just have to tell them what I did, why I did it that way, and what I'll be doing later. Other than that, I don't need to tell them anything.

Just coming on here makes me feel a little better. The only way is forward.... and all of that!

Ok.... plan.

About to make a tomato salad. 6 to start with.