This REALLY stinks!

After I sent my draft to my DA, I went into "in hiding" for the last two weeks, unwilling to look at my dissertation.

The first three chapters were "ok", and some need some modification, with some VERY heavy edits.

Chapter 4, she absolutely hates, and is getting very cranky about it! I feel bad for sending it to her, because I knew it was so bad. And now I feel she really hates me. She spent so much time on it, and I was planning on chopping it anyways... but... GRR!!!

I was merely trying to fill pages, and that ended up biting me in the butt. I really really feel bad, and I simply cannot apologize enough.

I asked her to stop on that chapter, and move to the next ones because they're better, and "fresher". Ugh.

Now I'm feeling very bad, and on top of it all, very stressed with my teaching load. 3 classes + dissertation = hell. No two ways around it.

I have to teach in 45 minutes, so for the next twenty minutes, I'm going to strategize for my day tomorrow where I'm not permitting any faffing until my meeting at 2.

Heaven help me. I don't think I can get through this.

I really wish I were as organized/determined/dedicated as some of you might be.

This process STINKS!

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