I'm too rattled!

After I sent my chapter to my DA yesterday I told her that I was still working on it, but I wanted to get her the revised STRUCTURE so she can see I've been making progress.

In the meantime, I kept working on it, until it now actually resembles EXACTLY how I want it to look and sound and read.

She just sent me the revised version from YESTERDAY after spending 5 hours (not sure if that's an overstatement) making editorial changes to it! She said it was "Bazillion times better!"

So now I feel like I wasted both of our times with this crappy chapter, and I'm totally rattled!

And of course, she was pissed because I had not corrected everything that she told me to correct from the first version she sent me. Well, of course I hadn't! And I told her so yesterday!

She said I should stop working, and move on to another chapter.

But now I'm really pissed! and I'm sure she's more pissed than I.

And she's still expressing a lot of concern over my ability to finish everything on time. She said she has stuff to do, and can't be devoting all this time to my dissertation. Right. So what the hell am I supposed to do then?

I have to teach 5 classes between now and Wednesday. I had planned my time in my head to do things in a very specific way, and now this is all plunketed upside its head.

I'm not happy, and I'm actually rather pissed off.

But, I think most importantly, I feel rattled. I was doing things one way, and then now I have to change completely because she doesn't have faith that I will finish things on time. But I WILL! ARGH!